Beyond Reason

I am the air my enemy breathes yet does not see.
I am the water, so very alive, deep in the dead sea.
I am the chains wrapped around ankles of the free.
I am the seed planted to destroy every single tree.

I am the love that can only produce hate.
I am the lie generated to manipulate fate.
I am the force designed never to penetrate.

I am the claw, lusting revenge to eviscerate.

I am the sensation of anger revolved around devastation.

I am the wall of fear entangled by the roots of hesitation.

I am the awe of a battle cry from the throats of one nation.

I am the sins of a blood stained blade ignorant of segregation.

I am the soul of an immortal substance.
I am the fire of a cold hearted existence.

I am the frequency of an invalid instance.

I am the escape into an ethereal entrance.

I am the ground quaked by the choice of a merciful destiny.

I am the seal unlocked by the flawless keys of eternity.

I am the poem that challenges words in a quest for liberty.

I am the voice that will shatter the very essence of tranquility.

Mother Nature

My sun has not yet risen... It has yet to come around
Birds tapping on the glass window... is my waking sound
I hear the wind and rain... as I place my feet on the ground
My day has begun... a slave to this fate... shackled & bound.

Do you fear the inevitable... while you continue this quest?

Do you feel the pain of failure... when you've been put to the test?

Do you lay useless... and think about it while you rest?

Do you seem invisible... despite the scream limited by your chest?

You've forgiven me... I wanted to be unforgiven

Remaining here.... you have ascended higher and risen.

Do you know what it's like to hurt... just so others would not feel pain?!
Don't you understand? What letters have you erased from my name?

I will stay here... and I will protect those who are not to blame!

You've forgotten them too... what is this monster you've became?

Distance... counting the miles of insanity that you have driven

Awaiting your return... as I deal the hand I have been given.

Birds still tap on the glass... as if they had nothing better to do

They steal my attention away... away from thinking about you

The sun has risen... it does not matter what is what or who is who

You've become the diamond... and I was the glass you'd cut through.

Escaping Back

Lifting my hands high... high above my head
I wish to silence the enraged, and those who are dead
As deaf as they were... even the blind wouldn't hear a word I'd said
Do they not understand? How much more are they going to shred?

You see, every time we stop... to think
We see it all... a grin... a smile... a sigh and blink
And every time we stop... and don't think
We miss it all... we scream... yell... die and sink.

Fate observes me... lurking under my skin
I'm addicted to the pain... and this innocent grin
Adrenalin stained burns... traveling from limb to limb
It awaits me to begin... I am to commit a necessary sin

Dropping a tear for every demon I kill
I am forced to paint this world with the blood I spill
This madness will not stop, only if and not until;
The echo of insanity has faded and my body holds still!

Running out the doors of time... everything looks the same!
It's... It's like a cycle... of death... poverty... fortune and fame
There is no exit... in this exit labeled game...
We see so many... when existence only walks one single lane.

Can you hear us...? We shall not fall to your crime...
We will play your game... We shall walk your line...
We will grow paths... We shall climb the longest vine...
We will take you on... either one by one... OR ALL AT ONE TIME!

The Sinless Angel

Perfection, I dream about her so very often

There is no rock of a man that she cannot soften

Driven by the rage of lust... yet, held back by the chains of caution

I dream of her to get away... I dream of her to be free of this coffin!

Love... was so unforgiving... and relentless

I'd never felt a power so great... yet so merciless

She called me sin... and she is forever sinless
Such purity... prevails through all hate regardless.

She walks through my reality with not one shred of care
She notices me once... but it is only one look, only one that she can spare
A pause, overwhelmed by such power... her eyes stab me everywhere
I cannot but notice the beauty of this angelic figure... face and hair
Forced to want to bleed for her... but talk to her? I... I do not dare!
Not the slightest clue I have about what words we would share.

Confused by this double-sided double-edged insane desire
I burn with this greed, it has consumed me whole and entire
Maybe someday she could understand me... realize what I require
Maybe someday this angel will call out to me... and pull me out of this fire!

The Reality

What has come of me...?
I've forgotten what it's like...

I've forgotten what it's like to be bound by rules... boundaries that have kept me safe... warm... carefree...

I've forgotten what it meant to just stare at birds... watching them eat, drink and soar ever so blue skies...

Wish you were home...

I sleep far away from slumber... far away from warmth... at but still so far away from home...

This is not me... I'm lost... lost in thought... lost in mind...

I am not in control...

I do not remember the last time waking up without thinking about the future...

The more I think... the more this path narrows... leaving me walking but a very fine line...

My destruction is but a slip away... I stand on this edge being pushed by this slow wind...

Wish you were home...

Weakness is asking a question... needlessly... you hold it in your left hand... but you do not seem to open your right... do you hold truth?... or maybe the whole path...

Reality is what it is. There is no escaping this mad world... for you have played the biggest part in forging it...

I stand before myself as a white coated judge
"Hello, Raven." it greets me, "You are here to be rid of this grudge."
"You've been falling for so long." it claims, "But now, you shall receive your budge."
"What are you talking about?" I ask, knowing full well that I need this nudge.

"You are the descendant of a great man; can you withstand putting him to shame?"
Reality has overwhelmed me... I stand silent... I'd wish for all but this reality if it ever came...
"Sir... I'd... I'd rather die before I am appointed such blame."
"Very well... you must start new... a new life... a new path... a new name!"

One after the other... the ravens from my shoulders fall...
The very room is flipping and twirling, tossing me from wall to wall...
This is madness... much like reality... life in pain... preventing me from standing tall...
This is not over... I CAN STILL CRAWL!

Water... so deep... but... I can Inhale...
Sunlight slowly rips through...
So powerful... so uncontrollable... so...
Authoritative.

This world is not mine... this world is not ours... there is something more behind the visual truth... I know now... that I must prove myself... I must prove myself to the people around me... to myself... and... to the truth behind this truth...

I think I finally understand that old Arabian saying...

"Time is like a blade... If you do not cut it... It will cut you."

"Sin." she calls out to me, waking me up from my life-changing dream...
I understand now... It is the new name I was promised... so it would seem...
A reminder, perhaps... to never become what I have once been...
But she had the voice of an angel... an angel, one that I wish I could have seen.